Sunday, September 14, 2014

note to self

Life is way too short to spend another day at war with yourself.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

17 facts about me

apparently someone brought back the 20 facts about me trend on instagram and i don't normally hop onto bandwagons like these but since i was tagged by my friends a couple of times i figured why not turn this 20 facts thing into a blog post. i'd have the freedom to write more because i wouldn't have to be concerned about crafting out a long ass caption on IG anyway. here goes.

1. i am an introvert.

it doesn't seem like it to a lot of people because i can actually be really loud and hyperactive when i am with my friends. my close friends. 

introverts - they don't necessarily have to be socially inept, ineffective and shy all the time. but i enjoy the quiet and i love being alone and i get really tense and nervous before meeting people for the first time. unlike a lot of my extroverted friends, i would rather stay home than go to parties on friday nights. my best thinking occurs when i'm by myself. i don't hate group projects, i just like to work and do things on my own. i took the MBTI personality test and i am an INTJ haha and oh, i hate crowds. 

2. i grew up watching disney channel, nickelodeon and...... WWE 

i absolutely LOVED watching the old TV shows like lizzie mcguire, that's so raven, even stevens, the suite life of zack and cody, drake & josh, all that, the amanda show, kenan & kel... 

but growing up with two older brothers, i watched a LOT of wrestling. ever since i was 6? 7? i was a huge fan of WWE, i think i stopped watching when i was in secondary school. but i still love talking about WWE with my friends. i must say, my knowledge of the wrestling world is pretty impressive. 

3. my favourite genres of music are mostly alternative, indie-folk, acoustic, (a little bit of) punk and post-rock.

i used to listen to poppy music in primary school but then i grew out of it after my brother's friend went through my playlists and told me "what?! the songs you listen to are so... MTV!" now i am unable to listen to a song that is top 10 on the itunes chart without cringing. 

4. i am a bookworm.

you should probably already know that, i love books. my favourite place in the country is actually a bookstore. i love reading. and for the past couple of weeks i've bought way too many books (and that is perfectly okay). i got a new bookshelf last year and i am currently in need of a larger space to store all my books already. 

fantasy, contemporary, fiction, non-fiction, sci-fi, paranormal, dystopian... childrens, young adult, adult... i don't really have a favourite genre, i love them all.  

5. one of my biggest pet peeves is when people. don't. close. doors. 

in an air-conditioned environments like starbucks, i could be on the second floor, witness the entrance door being left ajar and i'd walk all the way down just to close it. not a hassle. i cannot stand it when doors aren't closed. especially when they are meant to be closed adfjksdflkjak. 

6. i once got suspended in secondary school for yelling "fuck you lah" at my teacher. 

thought that would be an interesting fact. i apologized to her the night after of course, but when i did it i did not feel an ounce of guilt at all!!! i remember checking my phone for the time as the clock in class was spoilt and she was threatening to keep my phone for two weeks, the part that angered me the most was the fact that majority of my classmates were either playing games and texting on their phones or sleeping. *deep fire breaths* but yeah, don't yell at your teachers. 

i spent 8 hours in the general office studying chemistry though. and i've never not gotten an A1 for the subject ever since. hah. this is me subtly boasting. which brings me to the next fact about me.

7. yes, chemistry was my favourite subject in secondary school.

and i have considered becoming a chemistry teacher. but i don't think i have the patience or the capability of becoming one. 

8. i love anything that is green tea flavoured. 

anything. quirky snacks, drinks, ANYTHING. since i'm writing about food...

9. if i could eat only one food for the rest of my life, it'd be sushi.

i can never get sick of sushi and sashimi, 'nuff said. i wish more of my friends would eat sushi with wasabi because wasabi. is. awesome. 

japanese food is awesome in general. 

10. i want to travel the world. 

i mean, duh. 

some of the places i really want to visit would be aussie, japan, europe, greece and egypt. i just really wanna hop on a plane and go everywhere. and i mean, everywhere.

11. avenged sevenfold was the first ever concert that i've ever been to. 

i got pretty claustrophobic because everyone was just sooooo passionate about pushing and shoving to get their way. i was 14 and i was surrounded by big guys with eyeliner and long hair. i am allowed to be frightened by things like that. nonetheless, my friends took care of me and i had a whole lot of fun. avenged sevenfold is probably the only heavy metal band that i listen to. 

i attended my second, third and fourth concert (mayday parade, the 1975 and gentle bones) this year.

concert. tickets. are. not. cheap. 

12. i can play the piano. 

stopped at grade 6 because i remember being so stressed to the point where i'd cry during every piano lesson in 2012. 

i switched to a private tutor that year and she was perpetually rude and impatient throughout our lessons. plus she smells really bad. also, piano lessons are extremely costly. i decided that since i am already capable of reading notes and considering the fact that i don't aspire to be a pianist in the future, i didn't want to waste my parents' money anymore.

13. i don't drink. 

whenever i'm out with my friends and they order some martini or margarita or whatever it is they're called, i'd get a drink with the least alcohol content. i can't take alcohol for nuts. 

i once drank apple cider, got really red... and puked. 

oh and i once drank a can of tiger beer - the one with a twist of lemon - got really red... and puked. 

i've never gotten drunk and i don't think i'd ever want to try getting drunk. 

14. i had braces at some point of my life. 

from september 2011 to june 2013, which was not very long ago. i had to go for this not-so-minor-yet-not-so-major surgery to remove this tooth that was lying horizontally underneath my bottom set of teeth. inside my gums. i thought i was going to DIE... but i got through it. i was put under general anaesthesia, so i felt something rush through my veins and the next thing i knew i was lying on the hospital bed with a nurse standing next to it, offering me chocolate ice-cream. 

ps: retainers are the current bane of my existence.

15. besides losing the people i love, one of my biggest fears would be: birds (or anything living that flies) 

i hate anything that FLIES. especially birds. some of my worst nightmares involved birds flying straight up to my face and it was terrifying. i hate it when my friends try to run towards a flock of pigeons, beckoning them to fly away. what if they fly straight towards my goddamn face?!

16. biggest fear number 2: heights 

guess i'm just afraid of falling off buildings. i am fine with roller coasters, though. if you were to ask me if i'd ever been on the singapore flyer, yes.

i sat in the middle of that godforsaken pod(?) and closed my eyes throughout.

i also really fucking hate cable cars.

17. biggest fear number 3: the dark 

even when sleeping over at a friend's place in the dark, i remember looking at her and trying to find her facial features while she was speaking to me, i couldn't see anything and so i started thinking that i was talking to an eyeless, noseless, mouthless ghost.

i hate sleeping in the dark.

i used to sleep with night lights on. this year i am getting better hahahaha. but i still hate the dark!


ok i can't think of anymore facts... so tada. i am a very boring person.

by the way i just finished a book last night and i can't stop thinking about it. it's titled winger, written by andrew smith and it is by far one of my favourite favourite favourite books of all time. i love that book so much i finished all 439 pages in two days. crude, freaking hilarious and... heartbreaking. please go read it. 

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

omakase burger x timbre

yesterday was fun //

going to at least try to make the best out of the holidays. wouldn't want to let minutes turn into hours turn into days turn into regrets anymore. i finally spent a day at home reading, eating dessert and marathoning a couple of my favourite tv series. i deserve to be lazy today!!

Saturday, August 23, 2014


life's been nice. the semester has ended for me already, i am so relieved and grateful. there were wearing times but at the end of the day, i got through them (we always survive them) and i am happy. it is insane how our lives are constantly changing though, this time last year, i remember studying for my preliminary exams at my grandfather's wake. 

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

runaway train

first and last written examination for year 1 will be over in two days and i am so psyched for the holidays. poly has truly been a breath of fresh air. i find myself being inherently curious about what others are thinking about their lives in poly, so when i question "poly or secondary school?" i was pretty taken aback when most of my friends said they'd rather go back to reliving o levels over and over again. i guess i was part of the minority who thought otherwise because i really enjoy what i'm studying, plus i met a whole bunch of amazing people. beautiful people. hence i never seem to ever be dreading school. // is it too early for me to say this? 

it scares me how it is going to be a new year in about four months time. i am going to be 18 next year yet i still feel trapped in a body of a child, i do not feel older i guess none of us teenagers do i think we just make better decisions as time goes by? on nights where i toss and turn and can't seem to drift off to sleep, i think about the things i am supposed to do and occasionally, the things i am expected to do. i think about becoming "legal" next year, should i feel pumped and motivated, paint my face like a warrior prepare for certain battles and shit because i am certainly ill-equipped for the responsibility of... everything?

guess we'll see. 

i know i haven't properly updated my blog in awhile but as aforementioned i do not like to think of blogging as a chore. so hey. 

Thursday, August 7, 2014


i ought to be a pixie
instead of a fairy
pixies are hedonistic
beautiful tricksters
they dance around
from toadstools to trees
tempt and taunt
and tease
and have no queen 
fairies however
are innocent
and adorable
they flit around
and do good
and listen to their queen
how cute
but not for me
i'd rather be a pixie